The Weight of Money

Thanks to Madame X I’m now obsessing over what I obsess about. I’m wracking my brain and coming up short with any full blown obsessions.

I do obsess about topics and ideas for short periods of times. A couple weeks ago it was about a house that we were considering buying and how we might make living in it work. That took on obsessive thoughts that literally kept me awake at night. Turns out, all that thought for nothing, the house was under contract before we could really make up our mind.

I’m bordering on obsession and acute interest in planning for the new house. Even though I was trying to not get excited, I’ve been pouring over technical details for home repair. I want to have a house where I understand every single system inside and outside. I’m tired of feeling like I simply take up space in a house, I want to know that if something breaks I’ll at least understand the ins and out of the problem, and hopefully be able to fix it.

When I’m unhappy at work, I start obsessing about escaping. I’m now juggling the escape obsession with new job search obsession while freaking out about the impact it will have on our mortgage application.

I also obsess about doing the right thing. Like and I actually responding to this meme correctly? Just how “correct” does any type of response have to be. Will people notice if I screw something up? This obsession flows back and forth from caring to much about other’s opinions to being proud of my own choices, even when they may not be the best choice or what others would choose.

And now, for one last obsession, I’m getting antsy about site traffic. I hate to admit it because it feels like such a silly, childish thing to obsess over, but I always wonder what I need to do to interest readers more. I’ve gone back and tried to reveal viewer trends based on content, carnival participation, referrals, and am often still scratching my head as to why some days/weeks/month traffic is incredibly high and others it falls off the radar. I know that I often end up with sporadic breaks in content posting and am sure that doesn’t help.

Okay, so maybe those obsession will satisfy the obligation placed on me. :) I don’t pass memes along; thanks again, Madame X!

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